need

it just occurred to me to start asking people what they need that money can buy. sweet idea. it reminded me of talking to kevin, a homeless man in my parents' neighborhood, who when i asked him something like that told me that he wanted, needed life insurance. if he died, he was going to pottter's field, man. it's a concern with a lot of dignity in it. i mean, this guy is wretched on such a basic level, and yet he's super concerned with forever after. when i was younger and a big time piece of shit i used to often wonder why homeless people didn't kill themselves. not in a mean way, exactly, i just figured that they were hungry and cold and miserable constantly and unendingly and that that must make you not want to feel that way anymore.