while i was riding my bike i tested whether my helmet was tight enough by shaking my head back and forth. this is pretty silly looking, but also really stupid while one is riding a bike. i immediately crashed into a construction barrier and half fell off my bike and people must have thought i was having a seizure, or certainly suffering from some involuntary spasm, because what kind of idiot would endanger himself so hilariously testing whether he was safe? i was operating an acetylene while reading the safety manual.

i want to write about life so i don't get bogged down with the little things. it's like thought is a river and i want it to run a course through new territory, to not get silted and turn in on itself as old rivers do. i want to be above the fray, the smallness, the petty components which really do make up life if you don't see beyond them. i don't want my life to be an uncut list of banal shit, without hierarchy, everything right alongside the bathroom visits.