get a job.

be less complicated! i feel like i've been trying to live and speak in that headspace beyond where i'm smart enough to make sense of my thoughts. i'm constantly grasping at some higher, grander thread for all my feelings and shit and it's really silly and crippling. i can't think straight. was just talking to mom and she gave me the macro version of the "you're either hungry or tired" talk which is that i just graduated from college and have lots of pent up energy and need to get a job and do something with myself, and if i don't i'll continue cannibalizing myself and getting all in my head and over excited. i'm sure she's right. i've had enough of this grandiose malaise anyway, i think i've had a taste of this complicated version of myself i once fantasized about being and i'm pretty sick of it. get a job.